Oh Soda, how I love you
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Oh Soda how I miss you!
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Perhaps -one day we will meet again!
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I am back on track ladies, last night, I had to make brownies at work and not ony did I not have one, but I didnt lick the spoon, nothing, not a crumble, a smidgen nothing! Today is hubby to be’s payday and I usually get fast foos while I am running around, but today I am really focused on not doing that! But man am I starting to miss soda!
A long story short…hopefully.
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I was doing really well yesterday morning, my oldest daughter was home sick and I was getting alot of errands done while my hubby to be watched the girls at home. Then I had to jet to my staff metting where low and behold my boss had decided to comp out a table worth of food for us. Of course nothing was acceptable. Gotta love that, and even though I was starving! I just grabbed a water and sat down.
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Anyhow, my boss then pulls out a large bowl with ice in it and on top like a pot of gold were candy bars. So I stay strong……. right up until she calls me out for not eating. She was like bla bla bla grab a candy bar, go get a plate we can wait for you… bla bla bla . well. as proud as I am of myself for sticking to my diet and working hard, I was suddenly embarrased and didn’t want to tell anyone I was watching my weight. so to deflect the attention I just grabed a candy bar. 280 freeking calories!!!!!!!!! it wasn’t even that good!!!!!! so whtever I was mad. anyhow…… finished up the day running errands going to my son’s bookfair open house bla bla bla…. then ladies night, and I was in such a bad mood, that I said screw it and ate my dinner like no body’s buisness! Anyhow little now, but I have been busting my butt today hoping that my screw up doesnt reflect our team on Sunday. So to everyone, trust me I feel like crap today. I don’t need anyone to post that this stuff happens, even if you mean it becuase I am just really disapointed. So yeah…. part of this webiste is to own up to your actions, so I just wanted to share my day….. Back on track! Criss cross!!!! Julia
Hey all, I have just came to realize that since I have been working out lately I am really starting to have more energy! Last week, instead of lounging around I worked on the apartment. Cleaning, purging, deep cleaning, organizing. This week not as much cleaning was needed so I have been doing more with the kids little by little! Even today instead of watching my court shows, I played with playdoe with my youngest daughter! Last weekend I strapped on skates and skated with my oldest daughter( something I haven’t done in years and years) I mean I looked like crap, but I did it! I am really proud of myself, I mean I allways knew I was a good mom, I work a full time graveyard shift so the kids never see daycare, I pay the bills, I put the kids in lessons, do bookfairs, buy surprises, buy them nice clothes, give them allowance, do the Marine World thing, camping thing ect….. but I am realizing that in all the above activities (by the way, I have to give props to my husband to be, he works full time too, just during the day) I am just sitting on my butt watching. I take the kids to Marine World and I just walk and wait. Walk them to the next ride,then wait for them to get done. I take them to all these activities,then sit on my butt and wait for them to finish. I have come to realize that I don’t really play with them at all, you know? But the more I work out I am starting to WANT to do more with them. Hell at this point, while the weight loss will kick ass, I am finding my biggest reward in comming out of my food and lounge coma and realizing how cool my kids are and how much fun they can be when my laziness isn’t finding them demanding and annoying.
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Now while this was hard for me to admit, I am happy to turn over a new leaf! I am admiting that I have been a lazy mom, a mom who would lie down for a bullet, but perhaps until now hasn’t given them my best! But I am now a cool mom!!!!!!!!!!!!
my husband-to-be’s freind is in town visiting and they are having fast food for every meal. They are eating pizza with the kids as I write this. But I have stuck to my diet all day!
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I even got some excercize in and will do more at work tonight.I feel really proud of myself! I went grocery shopping just for my groceries today and bought some things for my diet, so I can still eat with the family. I hope things stay under control like this.
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Ok well I went over my calories and hardly excersized today but, I had alot of work to do today which is not normal, and tonight was ladies night (tuesday), so I was bad! I went over but not much which I was somewhat prepared for , I only had my slim fast all day. I went over like 200 calories, and I am going to work out more tommorow. Actually, the more I get into counting calories I am rationalizing beter. So next week, I am going to order less. I even had water all night instead of Ras Iced tea which I get unlimited refills on. 3 days gone and no soda! I see alot of progress and not much falling. I am still in a great mood and seeing positive!
Hey, here is my motivation! My wedding….. Check out my wedding website, sign my guestbook and check out my progress!
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?Hey all of you who have My Space.. here is my page link. Send me a friend request and let me know you are on here too!
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Today, is my official new start day! I have never really put much of an effort into myself and am very happy to see sites like this one to help keep me motivated! I have been really really good so far today( don’t we all start that way?)
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This weekend I went to an expo in my town and instead of walking straight to the car we took a shortcut, which happened to be uphill and I thought I was going to fall down. it was embarrasing and inspiring as well. I can’t ignore this anymore! I am going to really put the effort into me as I am going to get married in October and what a time plan to see some progress!
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So here we go! Wish me luck! Julia
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